I am so sorry / Tanya Pittson
Lilly is so beautiful, she is a true angel.
My first grandson joined Lily on Novemebr 2nd, 2006. The pain and sorrow I feel is unlike anything I have ever known. For the first time I do not know how to comfort my child. This pain is unlike any that I have ever known...I loved our baby Logan, I knew him, I spoke to him, I loved watching my daughter experience life inside of her, I was writing a book for Logan, about how we prepared for him, how I felt the first time I felt him move within my daughters belly, the first item I bought for him, the talks that I had with his mother about her feelings.....about how he played footsie within the womb....she would poke him and he would poke back, his daddy read to him each night, his mommy and daddy sang to him, I told him always how much I loved him...He was part of our family, we knew him and we loved him we were so ready, the nursery, the diapers, the wipes. toys, books, he had received so many beautiful handmade quilts from friends and family...I was given a surprise "grandma to be shower" I was ready to care for him...I have stroller and swing, toys, special quilts......I have lost someone so dear to me and am watching my daughter suffer something so imcomprehensible, she sobbed in my arms after the birth, "will I ever be the same, mom?" I have always had the answers, I have always been able to fix everything for her....to make it all better....but this.....this is unfixable......I am searching for answers and possible reasons, I came to this website and Lilly's photo and your story touched me deeply. I am so sorry for your pain, I have never known anyone close who has suffered this loss. I am shocked and deeply concerned by the many many parents who have lost such precious precious angels. My prayers this evening will be for all of the mothers and fathers who know this pain. I thank you for sharing your story. I know that Lilly and Logan are friends and are with all of us forever.
I hope that it is okay to have shared my feelings with you. If I have caused you one minute of pain by sharing my story, I apologize. I have never done anything like this or have even visited any personal websites.
I just felt like it was the right thing to do,if I was wrong please forgive me.
With heart felt love and sorrow for the loss of your beautiful little Lily,
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